The Ashes of Dreams You Let Die

Unopened Letter To The World


When someone leaves...
[info]malditaqueen
The thing you'll miss most is the way you greet them every time you see them.


"Bords, Bords Bords, ano na Bords?"

That's what I say whenever I arrive at the office and see these three people or whenever I pass by their workstations. Now that they have all left, I guess it'll take a while before you hear me redundantly utter these words again.


Wala na ang mga 'bords, bords, bords...'

When I arrived at the office this afternoon, I knew that starting today, I'll have a different set of people to spend my afternoons with. Iba na ang aayain ko mag-kape, mag 'mani-mani' kahit na second-hand smoker na lang ako, at kumain ng merienda. Wala na rin ang mga nag -imbento ng Chidori, Chichie, at kung anu-ano pang tawag sa akin sa office.

'Kape-kape? Mani-mani? Kaun-kaun?' Nakakamiss di ba?


Empty workstation

During idle times or whenever I'm just too lazy to work on my tasks (lol), I have been used to visiting four areas at the office: The three bords' stations and the PPT area.

On the first half of my shift today, I automatically stood up and went near Topy's station only to find an empty desk. It had slipped my mind that he had already left and that's when I realised that starting today, there will only be one area that I'll be visiting during idle times. The bright side is, there are at least six people in that area who are dear to me. Hopefully, I can count on that before I leave... whenever that'll be. =)



Things to ponder
[info]malditaqueen
ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, 'I love you', mean it.

FIVE. When you say, 'I'm sorry', look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much..

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, 'Why do you want to know?'

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say 'bless you' when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.



Just another
[info]malditaqueen
A compelling song where Pete Yorn does a great harmony with his guitar. Very moving, strong, well versed and desperately sung. It’s one of those embarrassing songs that touches all of our hearts when the lights are out and we’re lying in bed by ourselves.


You and I, we’re two of a kind
I hate to say it but you’ll never relate
What makes you tick?
It makes me smile

You said that I should get away from it all,
and bury my head in the sand if I want to,
I think you should thank me now.




Decisions
[info]malditaqueen
It's quite saddening that after a year, I still haven't decided on something.

The thing is that I'm not ready to act on this yet 'cause I'm not sure with what I really want.


Grey area
[info]malditaqueen
This is how a workstation looks like when someone's out of the office - lonely and gray.

But at least that person wouldn't have to go to work for the next four days. It could be a weekend spent just at home, watching TV shows and eating great food. Could also be a vacation somewhere far, far away. Wherever it is, it's away from the office.

It's nice to look forward to four days of not having to worry about what needs to be done and what needs to be finished by "EOB". That's just one acronym I hate hearing.

When you've been burned out with your job, it's nice to have a long weekend where you'll have absolutely nothing to worry about. It's just you and your personal life.

Yey! See you guys Tuesday. =)



March 2009
[info]malditaqueen
Happenings:
  • Panagbenga Float parade
  • Grace's despedida
  • Tagaytay roadtrip with E
  • Experiment with my flashes and camera
  • Subic trip with the bords - but for some family matters, I wasn't able to come. Oh well...

Realisations:
  • Somethings just can't be yours no matter how hard you try to get it
  • Sametime madness
  • You need great patience with people who are quite annoying
  • When someone annoys you, just smile and think about something else
  • At some point, you have to learn to say NO without guilt
  • Make time in your life for play
  • Thinking too much leads to nothing but stress
  • Everyone talks
  • Beggars can't be choosers (thanks Madz!)
  • The journey is just as important as the destination
  • Show people that you appreciate their efforts


I like it when you...
[info]malditaqueen
  • Call me up when you need something
  • Ask me when you're looking for someone
  • Ask me when there's something you wanna know, instead of asking other people
  • Greet me every day as I arrive
  • Greet me soon as you arrive and find me already there
  • Say goodbye when you're heading home
  • Say goodbye when you notice that I'm heading home
  • Send me a message when you aren't busy working
  • Send me a message to make me smile when you notice that I'm stressed out

But then again, it's April fools day!


For everything you left
[info]malditaqueen
'Sorry I've been asking you a number of times.'

On an otherwise stressful day, I might have replied with something like this: 'And I have been telling you a number of times. Why can't you get it?' but all I said was 'It's okay, no worries...' even though she has been asking me that question since last week.

The only thing is, she might ask me again tomorrow because I said it was okay. Demmet.

And why am I in a good mood today? I had this song on my mind the moment I woke up and I've been singing this all day even though I was listening to a totally different song.


Beneath the deep blue sea
Touching every breath
All a slight off hand
For everything you left

Sometimes, I know
Sometimes, I go down deep
Oh, oh, woah oh...

Sometimes, I give myself for you
Sometimes, I know down deep
Oh, oh, woah oh...


Isn't that the most relaxing song ever? At least for me, it is. It managed to keep me on a good mood.



Nerds
[info]malditaqueen
Izzie Stevens dies by the end of the season and George leaves Seattle Grace too.

Wow. What a bad season this has been for television shows. Lucas (and reportedly Peyton) will be leaving Tree Hill and John Dorian is also set to leave Sacred Heart Hospital.

What is happening in the world?

Haven't these writers learned their lessons yet? Their shows die when they decide to kill or remove the main characters. What's the point of renewing seasons for these shows if their main characters are gone? They might as well write a good ending with everyone in it.

Two months ago I've read that the writers of Grey's Anatomy wrote a clever storyline for Izzie and why she's seeing Denny. Well guess what, now that I've watched the new episodes, it's not clever at all.

I quote Alex Karev,

Dude, none of you are normal, you're freakin' band nerds!



Everyone talks
[info]malditaqueen
I was having a Chuck marathon and I can totally relate to episode 215. I quote Sarah Walker,
Trust me, everyone talks.
Very true.


When I english, I panic!
[info]malditaqueen
Nominated by UN as the best poem of 2008, this simple yet hilarious piece is written by an African kid living in poverty.

Oh well, all I can say is, when I english, I panic! LOL.


When I born, I black
When I grow up, I black
When I go in sun, I black
When I cold, I black
When I scared, I black
When I sick, I black
And when I die, I still black

And you white fellow,
When you born, you pink
When you grow up, you white
When you go in sun, you red
When you cold, you blue
When you scared, you yellow
When you sick, you green
When you bruise, you purple
And when you die, you gray

And you calling me colored?

 


Don't look away
[info]malditaqueen

I'm so into Kate Voegele's music for almost two years now. Music by a female singer/guitarist/pianist has never been this good... and her voice is just soooo powerful. Enough said.

You have the missing piece that I need so desperately
Yes, I slip away to a day that'll never come
It's like a splash of water to my face
When I suddenly realize...
That you could never find a place for me in your eyes



Manhattan from the sky
[info]malditaqueen
What are you doing today? What are you doing later? I don't know my way through a maze of gray skyscrapers But I'm willing to learn If you want me to, I'll stay just where I am But I promise just to follow when I land And you can take my word for that You are my Manhattan from the sky You look so neat and tidy when I'm way up high, But I know your streets are lined with a fine mess inside And I wanna come down and walk around your mind.


My Comet versus the bouncing blue ball
[info]malditaqueen
Comet, my Macbook Pro has been running smoothly for like a year now.

That doesn't mean I've done everything right, though.

Since January (if I remember correctly), I have been noticing this icon on my dock that has been bouncing and bouncing for one or two minutes everytime I log on.

I usually see a bouncing icon whenever I launch Limewire or Torrent or whatever, and that's probably why it never came to my senses that it was the blue rounded icon that has been bouncing all this time.

Yep, you got it... that blue icon with an arrow on each side pointing up and down and with a ball-like thingie at the center.

PUNYETA HINDI KO NA UPDATE SOFTWARE KO PATI IBA PANG UPDATES TATLONG BUWAN NA!!!

I shouted. Literally. At three in  the morning. Then came my brother knocking at my door and wondering why I was shouting so loud so early in the morning.

And that icon has been bouncing forever to remind me that there are new updates and I should update my software.

But yeah, I've been too busy chatting, surfing and downloading stuff to even remember that. LOL.

I'm so sorry Comet... now I shall wait for you to finish updating everything. Demmet.



Save the nerd!
[info]malditaqueen
I was surfing around when I read something quite upsetting:

What are Chuck's chances of being renewed?

I really want the series to continue now that the plot is interesting and going somewhere. but NBC has not picked it up for another year yet.

I hope NBC picks up Chuck.

Let's go sign the petition and save the nerd!



Smile
[info]malditaqueen
Sometimes, you just have to breathe deeply, put a smile on your face, light up your eyes and pretend like nothing's ever wrong.

It's just that its even more depressing when you talk to friends about your worries and then you see them feeling sad for you.

You know? (Maisingit lang line ni Pacquiao... now you know! LOL)



CHE!!
[info]malditaqueen
Hindi naman kasi ako pinanganak para ayusin mga mali mo.

Hindi rin naman ako pinanganak para utusan mo ng kung anu ano. Ano ba ako, personal secretary mo? Sosyal ka ah. Hindi naman kaya yun ang trabaho ko.

Etong isang tao naman, tinotolerate lagi, kaya namimihasa si pogi. Feeling tuloy niya pogi nga siya. Che!

Pasalamat ka weekend, kung weekeday bukas, deadmahin talaga kita.



Thanks.. but no thanks
[info]malditaqueen
Finally inalis na rin! Thank you!

Is this a sign?

Well, kahit hindi para sa akin, still, super thanks! HAHAHA.

Kaya lang... naisip ko lang, may mga bagay talagang hindi para sa atin. Nakakainis 'di ba? Kung anong gusto mo, yun ang hindi pwede. 'Yung mga ayaw mo, parang basura sa paligid mo na hindi mawala-wala kahit ilang beses mong itapon sa basurahan. Anu yun McArthur? I shall return ang drama ampotah.

Bakit ba hindi pwede? Eh yun ang gusto ko.

As in.

Mawala na ibang gamit ko. Mawala na mga gadgets ko. Mawalan na ako ng raket (raket lang, wag trabaho, sobra na yun! hahaha). Gusto ko lang talaga to.

Hindi ba talaga para saken? Lord, sige na naman po please? Stubborn talaga ako eh.


HAHAHAHA!

Praning muning mode nanaman ako. Just can't stop thinking about this. So paano yan, wala nanaman akong tulog nito at forever nanaman akong mag-iisip. GRRR.

Bakit ba kasi pinag-pipilitan ko?

Pero ang tunay na tanong ko...

Bakit nga ba kasi hindi pwede, hindi nalang ako pagbigyan, pinagpipilitan ko na nga eh. HELLO!!!

NAKAKAINIS!!!



That 70's finale
[info]malditaqueen
I love this show. It started in season one as just your regular sitcom with a group of dumb ass friends goofing around. But something changed as the show has progressed... and it came as a surprise. It got a little different, but it was even better. Suddenly, it wasn't just your regular sitcom anymore. It had a heart. And I love how the characters matured. The only thing I didn't like about the show was how Jackie dated and had sex and everything else with all the guys on the show. Her character wasn't even the usual American slut girl, but she ended up that way. It's just too slutty for a decent sitcom. And I think the show would've went on and on for more seasons if Topher Grace hadn't left the show for his Spiderman 3 gig. I think he would've gotten bigger if he stayed on TV for a bit longer before moving on. He was excited for his Spiderman 3 gig and dropped his own TV show, but where is he now? He doesn't have any movies. Wrong move right there. I hope this doesn't happen to Zach Braff. He'll be leaving Scrubs by the end of season 8 for a movie career.

Someone's in trouble
[info]malditaqueen
Gossip girl here... hahaha peace.

Someone's in trouble this year... and as the prediction says, "as usual!"



Hahahahaha.

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